a land of pure imagination

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 04:37:06 GMT

on describing the damage to new orleans from the break of two levees...

"It looks like Hiroshima is what it looks like," Gov. Haley Barbour said, describing parts of Harrison County, Miss.

Everyone was "walking around like zombies," Mr. Keel said.

-nytimes.

is that really appropriate?? i understand the severity of the situation, and i also understand the need to make that severity understood, but i can't BELIEVE some of the stuff i have been reading/watching lately.

i'm a little verklempt. talk amongst yourselves.

in michigan

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 04:59:57 GMT

i'm exhausted... my internet is glitching like it's going out of style

but i'm in michigan.

more later. much much more later.

Sun, 30 May 2004 19:28:41 GMT

taken from shadowsoflilith

*copy this list of books
*bold the ones you've read
*italicize the ones you've started but haven't finished
*add three of your own

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. 1984, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
22. Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel Garcia Marquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Susskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia Marquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie
101. Three Men In A Boat, Jerome K. Jerome
102. Small Gods, Terry Pratchett
103. The Beach, Alex Garland
104. Dracula, Bram Stoker
105. Point Blanc, Anthony Horowitz
106. The Pickwick Papers, Charles Dickens
107. Stormbreaker, Anthony Horowitz
108. The Wasp Factory, Iain Banks
109. The Day Of The Jackal, Frederick Forsyth
110. The Illustrated Mum, Jacqueline Wilson
111. Jude The Obscure, Thomas Hardy
112. The Secret Diary Of Adrian Mole Aged 13 1/2, Sue Townsend
113. The Cruel Sea, Nicholas Monsarrat
114. Les Miserables, Victor Hugo
115. The Mayor Of Casterbridge, Thomas Hardy
116. The Dare Game, Jacqueline Wilson
117. Bad Girls, Jacqueline Wilson
118. The Picture Of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde
119. Shogun, James Clavell
120. The Day Of The Triffids, John Wyndham
121. Lola Rose, Jacqueline Wilson
122. Vanity Fair, William Makepeace Thackeray
123. The Forsyte Saga, John Galsworthy
124. House Of Leaves, Mark Z. Danielewski
125. The Poisonwood Bible, Barbara Kingsolver
126. Reaper Man, Terry Pratchett
127. Angus, Thongs And Full-Frontal Snogging, Louise Rennison
128. The Hound Of The Baskervilles, Arthur Conan Doyle
129. Possession, A. S. Byatt
130. The Master And Margarita, Mikhail Bulgakov
131. The Handmaid's Tale, Margaret Atwood
132. Danny The Champion Of The World, Roald Dahl
133. East Of Eden, John Steinbeck
134. George's Marvellous Medicine, Roald Dahl
135. Wyrd Sisters, Terry Pratchett
136. The Color Purple, Alice Walker
137. Hogfather, Terry Pratchett
138. The Thirty-Nine Steps, John Buchan
139. Girls In Tears, Jacqueline Wilson
140. Sleepovers, Jacqueline Wilson
141. All Quiet On The Western Front, Erich Maria Remarque
142. Behind The Scenes At The Museum, Kate Atkinson
143. High Fidelity, Nick Hornby
144. It, Stephen King
145. James And The Giant Peach, Roald Dahl
146. The Green Mile, Stephen King
147. Papillon, Henri Charriere
148. Men At Arms, Terry Pratchett
149. Master And Commander, Patrick O'Brian
150. Skeleton Key, Anthony Horowitz
151. Soul Music, Terry Pratchett
152. Thief Of Time, Terry Pratchett
153. The Fifth Elephant, Terry Pratchett
154. Atonement, Ian McEwan
155. Secrets, Jacqueline Wilson
156. The Silver Sword, Ian Serraillier
157. One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, Ken Kesey
158. Heart Of Darkness, Joseph Conrad
159. Kim, Rudyard Kipling
160. Cross Stitch, Diana Gabaldon
161. Moby Dick, Herman Melville
162. River God, Wilbur Smith
163. Sunset Song, Lewis Grassic Gibbon
164. The Shipping News, Annie Proulx
165. The World According To Garp, John Irving
166. Lorna Doone, R. D. Blackmore
167. Girls Out Late, Jacqueline Wilson
168. The Far Pavilions, M. M. Kaye
169. The Witches, Roald Dahl
170. Charlotte's Web, E. B. White
171. Frankenstein, Mary Shelley
172. They Used To Play On Grass, Terry Venables and Gordon Williams
173. The Old Man And The Sea, Ernest Hemingway
174. The Name Of The Rose, Umberto Eco
175. Sophie's World, Jostein Gaarder
176. Dustbin Baby, Jacqueline Wilson
177. Fantastic Mr. Fox, Roald Dahl
178. Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov
179. Jonathan Livingstone Seagull, Richard Bach
180. The Little Prince, Antoine De Saint-Exupery
181. The Suitcase Kid, Jacqueline Wilson
182. Oliver Twist, Charles Dickens
183. The Power Of One, Bryce Courtenay
184. Silas Marner, George Eliot
185. American Psycho, Bret Easton Ellis
186. The Diary Of A Nobody, George and Weedon Gross-mith
187. Trainspotting, Irvine Welsh
188. Goosebumps, R. L. Stine (several)
189. Heidi, Johanna Spyri
190. Sons And Lovers, D. H. Lawrence
191. The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera
192. Man And Boy, Tony Parsons
193. The Truth, Terry Pratchett
194. The War Of The Worlds, H. G. Wells
195. The Horse Whisperer, Nicholas Evans
196. A Fine Balance, Rohinton Mistry
197. Witches Abroad, Terry Pratchett
198. The Once And Future King, T. H. White
199. The Very Hungry Caterpillar, Eric Carle
200. Flowers In The Attic, Virginia Andrews
201. The Silmarillion, J.R.R. Tolkien
202. The Eye of the World, Robert Jordan
203. The Great Hunt, Robert Jordan
204. The Dragon Reborn, Robert Jordan
205. Fires of Heaven, Robert Jordan
206. Lord of Chaos, Robert Jordan
207. Winter's Heart, Robert Jordan
208. A Crown of Swords, Robert Jordan
209. Crossroads of Twilight, Robert Jordan
210. A Path of Daggers, Robert Jordan
211. As Nature Made Him, John Colapinto
212. Microserfs, Douglas Coupland
213. The Married Man, Edmund White
214. Winter's Tale, Mark Helprin
215. The History of Sexuality, Michel Foucault
216. Cry to Heaven, Anne Rice
217. Same-Sex Unions in Premodern Europe, John Boswell
218. Equus, Peter Shaffer
219. The Man Who Ate Everything, Jeffrey Steingarten
220. Letters To A Young Poet, Rainer Maria Rilke
221. Ella Minnow Pea, Mark Dunn
222. The Vampire Lestat, Anne Rice
223. Anthem, Ayn Rand
224. The Bridge To Terabithia, Katherine Paterson
225. Tartuffe, Moliere
226. The Metamorphosis, Franz Kafka
227. The Crucible, Arthur Miller
228. The Trial, Franz Kafka
229. Oedipus Rex, Sophocles
230. Oedipus at Colonus, Sophocles
231. Death Be Not Proud, John Gunther
232. A Doll's House, Henrik Ibsen
233. Hedda Gabler, Henrik Ibsen
234. Ethan Frome, Edith Wharton
235. A Raisin In The Sun, Lorraine Hansberry
236. ALIVE!, Piers Paul Read
237. Grapefruit, Yoko Ono
238. Trickster Makes This World, Lewis Hyde
240. The Mists of Avalon, Marion Zimmer Bradley
241. Chronicles of Thomas Convenant, Unbeliever, Stephen Donaldson
242. Lord of Light, Roger Zelazny
242. The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier & Clay, Michael Chabon
243. Summerland, Michael Chabon
244. A Confederacy of Dunces, John Kennedy Toole
245. Candide, Voltaire
246. The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar and Six More, Roald Dahl
247. Ringworld, Larry Niven
248. The King Must Die, Mary Renault
249. Stranger in a Strange Land, Robert Heinlein
250. A Wrinkle in Time, Madeline L'Engle
251. The Eyre Affair, Jasper Fforde
252. The House Of The Seven Gables, Nathaniel Hawthorne
253. The Scarlet Letter, Nathaniel Hawthorne
254. The Joy Luck Club, Amy Tan
255. The Great Gilly Hopkins, Katherine Paterson
256. Chocolate Fever, Robert Kimmel Smith
257. Xanth: The Quest for Magic, Piers Anthony
258. The Lost Princess of Oz, L. Frank Baum
259. Wonder Boys, Michael Chabon
260. Lost In A Good Book, Jasper Fforde
261. Well Of Lost Plots, Jasper Fforde
261. Life Of Pi, Yann Martel
263. The Bean Trees, Barbara Kingsolver
264. A Yellow Rraft In Blue Water, Michael Dorris
265. Little House on the Prairie, Laura Ingalls Wilder
267. Where The Red Fern Grows, Wilson Rawls
268. Griffin & Sabine, Nick Bantock
269. Witch of Black Bird Pond, Joyce Friedland
270. Mrs. Frisby And The Rats Of NIMH, Robert C. O'Brien
271. Tuck Everlasting, Natalie Babbitt
272. The Cay, Theodore Taylor
273. From The Mixed-Up Files Of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler, E.L. Konigsburg
274. The Phantom Tollbooth, Norton Jester
275. The Westing Game, Ellen Raskin
276. The Kitchen God's Wife, Amy Tan
277. The Bone Setter's Daughter, Amy Tan
278. Relic, Duglas Preston & Lincolon Child
279. Wicked, Gregory Maguire
280. American Gods, Neil Gaiman
281. Misty of Chincoteague, Marguerite Henry
282. The Girl Next Door, Jack Ketchum
283. Haunted, Judith St. George
284. Singularity, William Sleator
285. A Short History of Nearly Everything, Bill Bryson
286. Different Seasons, Stephen King
287. Fight Club, Chuck Palahniuk
288. About a Boy, Nick Hornby
289. The Bookman's Wake, John Dunning
290. The Church of Dead Girls, Stephen Dobyns
291. Illusions, Richard Bach
292. Magic's Pawn, Mercedes Lackey
293. Magic's Promise, Mercedes Lackey
294. Magic's Price, Mercedes Lackey
295. The Dancing Wu Li Masters, Gary Zukav
296. Spirits of Flux and Anchor, Jack L. Chalker
297. Interview with the Vampire, Anne Rice
298. The Encyclopedia of Unusual Sex Practices, Brenda Love (well, I think it was the Brenda Love version)
299. Infinite Jest, David Foster Wallace.
300. The Bluest Eye, Toni Morrison.
301. The Cider House Rules, John Irving.
302. Ender's Game, Orson Scott Card
303. Girlfriend in a Coma, Douglas Coupland
304. The Lion's Game, Nelson Demille
305. The Sun, The Moon, and the Stars, Stephen Brust
306. Cyteen, C. J. Cherryh
307. Foucault's Pendulum, Umberto Eco
308. Cryptonomicon, Neal Stephenson
309. Invisible Monsters, Chuck Palahniuk
310. Camber of Culdi, Kathryn Kurtz
311. The Fountainhead, Ayn Rand
312. War and Rememberance, Herman Wouk
313. The Art of War, Sun Tzu
314. The Giver, Lois Lowry
315. The Telling, Ursula Le Guin
316. Xenogenesis (or Lilith's Brood), Octavia Butler (Dawn, Adulthood Rites, Imago)
317. A Civil Campaign, Lois McMaster Bujold
318. The Curse of Chalion, Lois McMaster Bujold
319. The Aeneid, Publius Vergilius Maro (Vergil)
320. Hanta Yo, Ruth Beebe Hill
321. The Princess Bride, S. Morganstern (or William Goldman)
322. Beowulf, Anonymous
323. The Sparrow, Maria Doria Russell
324. Deerskin, Robin McKinley
325. Dragonsong, Anne McCaffrey
326. Passage, Connie Willis
327. Otherland, Tad Williams
328. Tigana, Guy Gavriel Kay
329. Number the Stars, Lois Lowry
330. Beloved, Toni Morrison
331. Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal, Christopher Moore
332. The mysterious disappearance of Leon, I mean Noel, Ellen Raskin
333. Summer Sisters, Judy Blume
334. The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Victor Hugo
335. The Island on Bird Street, Uri Orlev
336. Midnight in the Dollhouse, Marjorie Filley Stover
337. The Miracle Worker, William Gibson
338. The Genesis Code, John Case
339. The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Robert Louis Stevensen
340. Paradise Lost, John Milton
341. Phantom, Susan Kay
342. The Mummy or Ramses the Damned, Anne Rice
343. Anno Dracula, Kim Newman
344: The Dresden Files: Grave Peril, Jim Butcher
345: Tokyo Suckerpunch, Issac Adamson
346: The Winter of Magic's Return, Pamela Service
347: The Oddkins, Dean R. Koontz
348. My Name is Asher Lev, Chaim Potok
349. The Last Goodbye, Raymond Chandler
350. At Swim, Two Boys, Jaime O'Neill
351. Othello, by William Shakespeare
352. The Collected Poems of Dylan Thomas
353. The Collected Poems of William Butler Yeats
354. Sati, Christopher Pike
355. The Inferno, Dante
356. The Apology, Plato
357. The Small Rain, Madeline L'Engle
358. The Man Who Tasted Shapes, Richard E Cytowick
359. 5 Novels, Daniel Pinkwater
360. The Sevenwaters Trilogy, Juliet Marillier
361. Girl with a Pearl Earring, Tracy Chevalier
362. To the Lighthouse, Virginia Woolf
363. Our Town, Thorton Wilder
364. Green Grass Running Water, Thomas King
335. The Interpreter, Suzanne Glass
336. The Moor's Last Sigh, Salman Rushdie
337. The Mother Tongue, Bill Bryson
338. A Passage to India, E.M. Forster
339. The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
340. The Phantom of the Opera, Gaston Leroux
341. Pages for You, Sylvia Brownrigg
342. The Changeover, Margaret Mahy
343. Howl's Moving Castle, Diana Wynne Jones
344. Angels and Demons, Dan Brown
345. Johnny Got His Gun, Dalton Trumbo
346. Shosha, Isaac Bashevis Singer
347. Travels With Charley, John Steinbeck
348. The Diving-bell and the Butterfly by Jean-Dominique Bauby
349. The Lunatic at Large by J. Storer Clouston
350. Time for bed by David Baddiel
351. Barrayar by Lois McMaster Bujold
352. Quite Ugly One Morning by Christopher Brookmyre
353. The Bloody Sun by Marion Zimmer Bradley
354. Sewer, Gas, and Eletric by Matt Ruff
355. Jhereg by Steven Brust
356. So You Want To Be A Wizard by Diane Duane
357. Perdido Street Station, China Mieville
358. The Tenant of Wildfell Hall, Anne Bronte
359. Road-side Dog, Czeslaw Milosz
360. Wide Sargasso Sea, Jean Rhys
361. The Bible
362. The Bloody Chamber, Angela Carter
363. The Dumas Club-Arturo Pérez Reverte
364. Neither Here Nor There-Bill Bryson
365. Around the World In Eighty Day-Jules Verne
366. Asterix, Goscinny and Uderzo
367. Sense and Sensibility, Jane Austen
368. A Streetcar Named Desire, Tenneessee Williams
369. The Iliad, Homer
370. The Three Musketeers, Alexandre Dumas
371. Winesburg, Ohio, Sherwood Anderson
372. The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath
373. An Equal Music, Vikram Seth
374. Their Eyes Were Watching God, Zora Neale Hurston
375. The Mozart Season, Virginia Euwer Woolf
376. Norwegian Wood, Haruki Murakami
377. A Wild Sheep Chase, Haruki Murakami
378. One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish, Dr. Seuss
379. We The Living by Ayn Rand
380. The Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells
381. The Dragonriders Of Pern by Anne McCaffrey
382. The Tin Drum, Gunter Grass
383. Sirens of Titan, Kurt Vonnegut
384. Tarantula, Bob Dylan

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 04:17:55 GMT

i'm very busy working on my homework and my letter to the easter bunny...

as evidenced by my "dylan mullet" google image search.

i had to share:

i have to be a corporate slut for a second

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 20:42:41 GMT

you guys should buy a subscription to the florida review, because...

a. you love me and i have to sell three more
b. they are cheap ($10)
c. some of the stuff is actually pretty good.

for 10 bucks you get 2 issues of mixed genre creative writing delivered straight to your door!

(you love me.)

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 15:10:39 GMT

i went to see whole last night... where do i begin? the documentary is about people who want amputations of healthy limbs. sometimes they will injury their healthy limbs to force an amputation. a guy in orlando shot his leg in the knee with a shotgun. some guy in europe froze his leg in dry ice. most of the people say they feel more complete without their "extraneous" limb and have known all their lives they were living in the wrong body. the film quality is debatable, but the subject matter was interesting. doctors don't know how to treat these people because of the hippocratic oath and the possiblity of lawsuits for removing healthy limbs. a guy in scotland removed two healthy limbs and then wasn't allowed to practice medicine in the UK again.

after the screening, the director and the orlando guy were there for questions. really, i didn't have much to ask. the guy came into the movie about half way through, and being the ADD slut that i am, i paid attention to him over the movie for the rest of the time.

strange. i guess the closest thing to this issue is gender identity. but it goes to show how superfluous constructions of beauty and identity are. you can feel completely ugly despite how you look and still be perfectly convinced that you are ugly.

film festivals suck, btw. there was so much ass-kissing and name-dropping that i wanted to throw up. i hate artists.

it's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance, but there was once you

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 14:28:30 GMT

well, my first class was cancelled today... but we weren't told until the class should have started. that means i got up at 8AM FOR NO REASON. plus, i read 150 pages for that class last night. *sigh*

i have a quiz in my narratives of slavery class in a few hours. i really hate quizzes. reading quizzes can suck it.

i didn't go for my walk last night. i didn't have the energy, nor could i think of a place where it would be safe for a girl to walk alone at midnight. even the campus isn't that safe.

after some alone time, i'm feeling a bit better. that could just be the caffeine talking. cup of coffee + empty stomach = buzzed michele.

...

20.

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 00:11:19 GMT

no major reflections on my birthday, because birthdays don't mean much to me. such an undeserving holiday, where rod serling rewards me with 46 hours of the twilight zone.

ah. the twilight zone.

spent last night at anna's, ringing in the new year with the twilight zone and tales of masonry. not real masonry, just information stolen from the internet. as with any time with anna, things were learned and fun was had.

looks like the plan for next semester involves another copy editing stint and getting the proverbial hook-up from my internship at the literary magazine. editing experience is good.

i'm looking forward to school, i guess. i have to, because this semester will require a lot of attention... so that i don't drop the ball.

orlando tomorrow... and a big sigh of relief.

*walks away*

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 05:01:21 GMT

went shopping today...
and bought some stuff for myself.

a pair of brown strappy shoes ON SALE
outkast cd (it was only a matter of time)
some good smelling lotion
pens!

and the last of xmas gifts.

this was after i got out of bed at 8AM voluntarily. weird.

took a nap then went to anna's, where we got through a fraction of 8.5. we then skipped to the harem scene and i professed my love for marcello. WHO IS DEAD. i need to stop that. it was nice to catch up, burn cds, and talk about future adventures (stalking julius airwave, dancing lessons, and the like).

now, i have to watch titus and play with the camera, to see if i want to buy it. textbooks... mmmm.

speaking of textbooks, a lot of my school books came. boy do i love opening packages that i know contain books. i revel in my dorkery. it's like an art.

anna's chapbook is neato. my legs make a cameo. makes me reinterested in trying to write for an audience, b/c i don't know that i can.

challenges are good. i wish i had a job lined up for after school...

edit: i don't know why i bought those shoes. i never go out. take me out.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 21:00:26 GMT

back at the first grandma's.

christmas take:
aqua teen hunger force dvd
brain candy dvd
sweaters/scarf
brak show t-shirt
gift certificates
money
elvis costello's trust (cousin elvis as the costello side affectionally referred to him)
pj harvey's is this desire?
blanket
cat power ticket

went to a good restaurant and ended up accidently dipping food in meat sauce. i'm pretty upset about that. 2 1/2 years...

bad night last night. questioning everything. more on that later? i might post my journal entry.

hope everyone else is doing well...

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 20:50:30 GMT

i tried to pocket central michigan winds,
dusty snow, but i lose
even dead men's coins
where my hands lie
and their eyes go empty.

after midnight, i hear your lungs collapse like shutters
frozen in the lapses of conversation,
in the swallowed collection of past tenses.

chastizing early morning naps
deliver me to unsettled relationships
in a velvet dress dropped at the shoulder.

he lectures in the letter
torn into rose petals
leading to a sickened altar
only consciousness sweeps.

the television
play crucifix
an anglo-saxon jesus
the best slaves
the pie cook-offs and ham hotlines
the real competition comes from
the cardinal that flew into the glass pane,
fell stunned.

i love that view.
that porch.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 17:27:25 GMT

going to the other grandma's for 5 days.

no internet there.
*shakes*

will update when i get back.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 04:28:47 GMT

i sat down to type a while ago... couldn't think of what to say.

i miss florida. my freedom. my people. my apartment.

i feel like i'm losing.

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 03:45:37 GMT

christmas at one grandma's today...

a lot of people, not a lot of space.

didn't go outside, so no chill factor.

time to go home. having a hard time going to sleep. hands are a mess. tired and stressed.

i'll try and write tonight. one day at a time.

Sat, 20 Dec 2003 21:01:33 GMT

hello from chilly michigan.

outside temp around 24 degrees. let's just say my chuck taylors weren't the smartest choice for snowboots.

way under dressed, but that's the story of my life.

thank god for gameboy, old school gameboys with super mario games.

feels christmas-y, complete with all that condensed family time.

i miss you.

booyah

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 07:21:26 GMT

i checked my grades...

4 As and that 1 A-.

how do i do that???
i'm relieved.

3.95 GPA for the semester.

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 01:36:27 GMT

*does modest party dance*

got an A- in crime and punishment. man did i work my ass off for that A-.

bigger grade update later.

Sun, 07 Dec 2003 15:18:31 GMT

oh, and i don't care how shitty this is... at least i wrote something!

At night
sidewalks fume,
exhume elongated sighs,
as if remembering

the boys
who held skateboards and afternoons
down the length of their thighs
and discussed manhood
under sips of Coke,

the morning girls
in last-night’s dresses
who could pass in church
if it weren’t for the wrinkles
that clutched the guilt
the girls did not.

poem #3 for poetry workshop

Sat, 27 Sep 2003 04:20:03 GMT

Down

1. Fall
The click of his pen is really a creek,
an inaudible gasp,
last strain before suffocation.
That hide, so bare, begs for a brand.

You alone

do not warrant a scream.

2. Rain
The clouds spit
in your face.

He wants you
to sweat until beads beat and become punctuation
and beauty marks born of the same father.

3. Ground
You bare your teeth
as pine needles play bamboo shoots
through your city shoes.

You hold up your knife
to carve. to own. to name.
Bark chips until he crumbles.

4. Sunset
He whistles with saw grass through your leg,
a love bite,
a wispy bloodletting to hollow you, so

he can fill you up
until his gurgling pulse is your only beat.

The last word you know will be unintelligible:
the eternal syllable of silence.

---
He doesn’t care and
you don’t know
that you’ll spell it wrong.
His moans are your ‘ah’s.

You’ll never climax together.

Fri, 26 Sep 2003 15:37:24 GMT

GRE score?

verbal: 510
quantitative: 650

so, i got 1160 and did BAD ON THE VERBAL PART.

should i take it again?

poem #2 for poetry workshop

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 23:07:36 GMT

the edge

grit had worn her beautiful.
smooth, tight scars absorbed shrieks and echoes
of past penetrations.

the blade holds
a woman polished with concrete dust,
lungs carved in smoke. she takes
her fiberglass tongue to town.

she doesn’t need lattes
to survive, has a fear of nature, shudders at plush pinecones.
the prospect of a tricked tender can consume.

a matter of dividing:
the organically diabolical from pockets
of weakness.

rubble walks.
statues stutter.
stone lipstick hides.

file underground.
she takes her stud-
dead metro card with her.

tears him between her teeth.
drops him in the melted steel.
scoffs at the sickening slosh
of his intimacy.

she moves inside when the rain comes.
shattered glass makes a surprising shower.
picks replace plops.
a crunch, no crash.
just picks

her scabbed skin
will do.

i wish this was a joke

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 18:31:23 GMT

i guess today is "national 'talk like a pirate' day."

the only reason this has been brought to my attention is that there are TWO kids in the honors computer lab DRESSED UP LIKE PIRATES. they don't even know each other. that's sad.

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 01:51:00 GMT

it's really sad when you have to rationalize taking a nap at 10:00 at night, instead of being able to just go to bed.

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 14:10:08 GMT

does anyone have a code lying around???
i'll be your best friend...

come on, all the cool kids are doing it.
you want to be cool, right?

Mon, 15 Sep 2003 06:52:33 GMT

letter to poetry teacher:
do not encourage my last-book-response writing by calling it fabulous. you and i both know that i not only wrote that paper the day it was due, but that i read the book the day the paper was due.

if you don't punish me, i will not learn.

expect more poorly-written book reviews soon.